Almost here

I want to write but I don't know what I want to say.... Funny thing is I want to express what I am going through right now but I don't want to put it out there. The thing is I am seeing someone as a friend but as much as I try to fight it I am begining to like this person. I have a wall up around my heart because it was crushed after a 5 year engagement only to have no husband no one in my life that I can say is mine. It is coming to the time of year when everyone want someone to call there own V-Day .... That special love intrest that you can buy and recieve gifts from and make it a special day or it. but what if you have no one what if all you have is someone to see when you need to ... You know... I want more I want to have that love in my life I want to have someone that is my special someone but I also don't want to be hurt I don't want to let the hall down. I want to know that any given day that special somone will come into my life and make me love again or better yet help me to get me over this hurdle that I have put myself behind......