Reflecting

I was sitting here today this Saturday Morning and I thought...... How in the hell did I end up here. Hear being at a point in my life that has me wondering.... WTF I know I'm intelligent, creative, funny, and if I must say so myself attractive.

But why do I feel like I have not made it, there are so many thing I know I want to do with the creativity that I have but I have yet to do them as if I'm waiting on this magic fairy to come into my life with a magic wand and say poof it's done.

But you know what now is the best time if any to as the saying goes "Geter Done".
I have met people in my life that have said I would do great things and I was going to help many people in my life, and you know what I have.. Letting people into my life that under any other circumstances I would not.
Not to say that I did not want to help because I am the type of person that would help anyone even if I did not like and or love them. I have been helped so many times in my life by complete strangers that I feel it my duty to pay it forward.
As I approach my 38th birthday I know my life has to change and for the better. better choices and a fierce movement that is a change for the better.
Is is going back to school yes!!! Because I know I must do this if for no one else myself.

I happen to have a family member of mine find me on facebook and must I say she is doing extremely well but I'm not trying to keep up with the Jone's however I am trying to become proud of my life.
I will have my bakery/cafe because this is what I love to do and I don't want to spend my day's thinking could of should of when I know good and damn well the only thing stopping me is ME!
Well on this Saturday March 7,2009 I am making a promise to myself get up off your azz stop kicking yourself for the choices you made and JUST DO IT!

My time for change is now!!!!